Paradigm Shift...

As I mentioned in my first post , I was the type who dread motherhood.Being with children needs a lot of patient and I was always the impatient type....

I kept pushing having one till I was comfortable with the idea ..as a matter of fact I took so much time that everyone else in my family became restless about it and started cribbing.Everytime I used to speak to my mom over the phone she would bring this topic up and would put me off.Soon she realized that she was rubbing me the wrong way and gradually let me alone :)

Moreover most of my friends and colleagues didnot have kids or is it that birds of the same feathers flock together?The first pregnant lady with whom I daily interacted was one of my colleague ,also  a sweet friend .I saw her baby when she was 10 days old and was happy to hold the baby in my arms.
That day I heard a hushed voice from within...alas the biological clock is ticking away...to which I quickly responded..yet there is time !!!

A year later I moved to London.I had quit my job in India and decided to take a break for a while..but with the recession the break got stretch more than I had wanted it to.
Many advised me that perhaps this was the best time and I should start thinking...I shooed them off.
Are they crazy??? I am looking for a job...who will hire a pregnant woman?

I didn't have any friends yet in the new locality ..often I would wonder who stays next door???After a month I did get to know the next door neighbours and guess what...my next door neighbor was expecting!She had just completed her first trimester.

Everytime I saw her she would be beaming with joy about having a baby.She would  keep saying stuff that I couldn't relate to...but it was all getting registered in some corner.

Through them we made more friends,a couple with a baby and another couple without a baby.Now this  girl  was sailing on the same boat as me...running away from motherhood.Quickly we became friends!Not to mention I made great friends with the other couple too!!

Together we watched our pregnant friend closely all through her pregnancy however when she delivered we were holidaying in Switzerland.We returned to London just in time to welcome home the new mom and baby  ...infact we saw them sooner than we had expected.
It so happened that they had forgotten the take the baby car seat and needed someone to bring it to the hospital .I was asked to do the honor.I and my friend rushed to the hospital.

That was the first time I visited a maternity ward..and saw the first time a 2 day old baby.I was awed....I saw a creature that was so tiny and fragile .. I was scared to touch it let alone pick the baby....the next few days were frequent visits to their place.It was fun playing with  the newborn.One month quickly flew by...the next month they shifted out of that locality into their own house.

They moved home and along with them had also moved my rigidity.....the idea of having a baby was not such a dread any longer...a paradigm shift !